My story is a story of failure and redemption.
I tried to gain fulfillment on my own, and every time I was left
searching. I was a happy person, and I had great friends and parents who loved
me, but I just felt like there had so be something more. I tried to become the
person I thought others would like, but nothing was enough.
Once I realized that my story was not about me, but was about
Jesus, only then did I find satisfaction.
At the time, I did not know that God was calling me to be set
apart from the world. I believe he had been calling me for a while, but I was
to consumed in the world to notice. I was the queen and life was about me.
I was failing, yet Jesus kept pursuing me.
Entering college,
I was still looking for fulfillment. I searched, but I never found it. I again
turned to guys, but this time was sexually abused. My heart broke. I was
depressed and filled with shame, but Jesus saw the situation differently. Jesus
kept pursing me.
Jesus never gave up on me. He used my broken heart to turn me to
him, so he could repair it.
God brought me to a point of utter dependency. I was a freshman
in college, in a different state, without close friends, and Jesus used all of
this to get me to reach out to him. My whole life I went to church, but I
lacked the heart of Christianity, a personal relationship with Jesus. I was not
living a fulfilled and satisfied life because I was trying to conform with the
standards of the world.
Friends, do you see how crazy this is? I went to church, but I
did not know Jesus! I did not know that his love would be the only love that
could satisfy me!
I began to finally understand that only through a personal
relationship with Jesus could I find complete fulfillment. After realizing
this, I learned that God truly loves me, even with my brokenness, and has a
wonderful plan for my life.
Before college I knew about God, and I believed in Jesus, but not
until college did I make the individual choice to make Jesus the king of my
life.
I realized that God was calling me to live a life set apart from
the world. What the world defines as fulfilling, is not fulfilling.
Today, I still fail. Some
days, I still make myself king. I put myself on the throne every time I do what
I want instead of what God wants. Thank goodness for grace and forgiveness! I
am learning that relationships are not one time decisions, but are lifelong
journeys. I am on a journey to try and make Jesus the main character, and that
everything I do would be about him.
I believe that Jesus will use me and my story to help women. I
invite you to join me on this journey to fully embrace how we have been set
apart. Find your joy in the journey. Check out my posts. Invite other women to
join us on this journey.
Experience Jesus. Experience His joy. Experience His freedom.
I hope this post has encouraged you! Be sure to add me on social
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Joy Pedrow is a college senior at
the University of South Florida and a blogger at joypedrow.wordpress.com. She grew up in
Monroeville, a town outside of Pittsburgh, Go Steelers! She loves journals,
mangos, summer, the beach, spanish music, and blogging. She has a passion for
ministry. Specifically, she feels called to help women understand the love of God
and help them grow in their spiritual journeys. Be sure to follow her blog and
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